Well, I can't honestly remember the last time I wrote in this. I mean, it obviously says the last entry I had, but I don't even remember doing that. I guess a lot has happened since the last time I wrote. One of them being...I've graduate, finally. Graduating was one the scariest things for me. Not because I'm scared of what the future holds, but it is kind of scary leaving the only place I knew for the past four years. Going through the same old routine day. Dreading first hour, sleeping through second, half awake during third, and just trying to make it through 4th, 5th, and 6th hours. It's scary to know that I won't be waking up every morning to see my friends at my locker again, and tell them about the extraordinary dreams I had the night before, or how I woke up 30 minutes late and ran to school in my pj's. Everyone is going in their own directions. Some people are staying close to me, and others are going as far as Texas...ick, Texas. Speaking of that dreadful state, it has in fact claimed my boyfriend for the next four years. Damn it. I'm just going to pretend that he's not leaving soon, maybe it won't hurt as much that way...or maybe it will hurt more? I don't know. Texas is so far away, the distance is scary and it's nerve wracking to think about what it can do. I've been with my boyfriend for 9 months now, unfortunately we both won't be in Michigan for our 10 month...he'll be in Texas, and I'll be in Japan. Yup, Japan. My parents, actually just my dad, is kicking me off to Japan for 2 weeks. I didn't even ask to go, he just decided that he wants me to go to Japan for my graduation gift. I just finished a whole summer's worth of classes, I just want to relax.  I honestly think he is out to ruin my life, and make sure that I have no time to stop and breathe. I am going to Japan on the 8th, and that's the same day that my boyfriend leaves for Texas (coincidence?) and then I get back on the 19th, and my classes start soon after that. What sucks more than not having any time to breathe, is not having my boyfriend 10 minutes away...Ugh, this sucks so much. I think I am just being a drama queen because I can be right now. Which is the poorest excuse for my consistent complaining. I guess I'm just frustrated with how this summer has turned out. I have been working really hard and I never seem to get that break that I so patiently look forward to...I won't make this too long, but I thougth I would update this since I have a minute or two. Anyway, I guess I will go and read.

Well, once again I'm having that rollercoaster of a life. It was a pretty long weekend, Ramadan started on Saturday. Which was like....two weeks ago, so I've miraculously made it this far. It'll be over by the end of next week so yeah, it went by kind of fast and kind of slow. Things have been rahter good with me, and I hope they stay that way. I've been as happy as I can be and thats good. I guess it is kind of sad to see that all of my friends have someone else they can go to, like a boyfriend or girlfriend and I guess I just keep getting reminded of nice that was when I didn't have to depend on my best friends, who have boyfriends, to help me through things. I'm not sure whats going on with my current status, I'm just taking things day by day, and i'm starting to get a little freaked out because I find that i am falling a little harder than i anticipated...So I'm not too sure what to do there. I guess I have to just keep taking things slow and see how they go. Homecoming dance was....last saturday I think? Anyway, it was a lot of fun, I had with a lot of people, guys and girls and it went just the way I wanted it to, with some minor annoyances which I got over shortly after.  Things with my friends have been realy good, I think I am on good terms with just about everyone, and it can't get much better than that really. It seems like these past two weeks have gone by SO SLOWLY. This week has been really stressful for me and I've been waiting for friday (1/2 day) anxiously, but it can't seem to come fast enough. I'm excited to see how things change when ramadan ends, obviously I cant really do anything horrible cause its like the month of refrainment, and I'm trying to just be as good as possible. But yeah, when it ends, I'm anxious to see the turn things will take as far as my interest goes. I dont really have much to say, it's october. It's supposed to snow tomorrow and I'm really really sad about that, like more than anything. I hate winter so much, I have NO body fat, and I'm not sure I'll make it without buffing up right now. haha. so yeah. Things at home are pretty good i guess, and my family and I are all doing just fine. so yeah, anyway, it's late so I need to go. GOODNIGHT. 

I'll update a better one later.

Well, it's been a while, once again. Darn it, sorry people I am trying, but school is about to be the death of me. I've been alright these past couple of weeks. Still confused about uhm.....everything I talked about in my last post. I guess I made a mistake and actually confronted one of the people and kind of poured my heart out, and they didn't hurt it nor help it. So I'm not really sure what is going on there. I am, however, really frustrated with the other person. I'm not really sure how he feels (what else is new) and I am sick of trying to figure it out.  I want to give up on both of them sometimes, but then they'll say or do something out of the blue and just keep me in this never ending game. My birthday was yesterday and I had a pretty crappy day at school, with the acception of maybe 2 or 3 good things, such as Sonya surprising me at my locker in the morning with the NOTEBOOK!!!!!!!! And decorating my locker. Awwwww, I love you Sonya!. Then I came home and did the loads of hw I had, and kept working until it got late. Sonya surprised me and came over right after her practice and so we talked and I tried to get some sort of answer out of my uhm..."interest" but that didn't work really well, seeing as how he is confused too. At one point, I got up and left to go to the bathroom and when I came back Sonya was sitting on the laptop, and I saw something pink infront of the laptop, sitting on the keyboard. So they were like..SURPRISE! And I looked inside and one of the gifts were wrapped and I was so excited because I knew it was a movie, I just didn't know which one, so I started unwrapping it and saw Jimmy Falon's face and nearly screamed. She got me FEVER PITCH!!!!!!!!!!!! One of my favorite movies! And then she also gave me some uhm.....stuff that girls like. Anyway, my brother then surprised me and I was truly surprised because all week he was like..."i dont have any money. I didn't get you anything" and i was like kind of bummed, but then he was like..SURPRISE! And I was like..WOOAHHH, and I opened his gift which was MADAGASCAR!!!!. (damn, people were smart this year!!) And I was like HOLLYYY CCRAAP! I was so excited. Then my mom came in and gave me this skirt that I really love. It's so pretty and its  got beads at the bottom, it's a long skirt (obviously) and I think I might wear it one of these days to school, if the weather starts to look nicer. That was pretty much my birthday. Saturday was the party and lots of  people came and we played at patriarche then star gazed at whitehills and it was just a lot of fun. I bought mostly everything so it costed a lot but I'm glad people enjoyed everything. Uhmm....what else happeend, we lost our football game (high school) against hotl 3-33, and MSU beat pittsburg, I dont remember the score...but thank GOD for drew stanton. I had my phsyics test today, it was pretty hard I'll say, so I'm not excited about getting that back,but we'll see how it goes. I have a bio test on thursday which I have a shitload of reading to do for that, a gov't test on monday, bio quiz friday and yeah lots of math, and a math test on friday. So yeah, it's going to be a busy week...Overall I've been pretty up and down and at the moment it's up. But I always feel like I'm boarderline of happy and sad, which is a sucky feeling sometimes because it doesn't allow me to be completely happy about anything really.....Anyway, I think I am done ranting/talking for now. Sorry for updating after a while...again. I have so much reading to do tonight. See ya!

Well, I've been getting complaints about not updating this thing so I guess I'll do it now while I have a lot on my mind and am free of homework. This Tuesday, hell came and bit everyone in the ass.. (aka first day of school). It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, and my teachers are all really really cool. I'm glad they are so nice and easy going.  I think my favorite class right now would have to be bio, or precalc...or maybe phsyics....hm, yeah. I'm happy I have friends in all of my classes, it makes the day much muccchh more bareable. I haven't been doing much lately. Just making sure I'm doing my homework, I don't want to get into an old habit of procrastinating, so I'm doing my work either in class or as soon as I get home. Which is kind of a miracle because usually I'm dead tired from school and I take a nap until like 9pm, without even realizing it. So it's an offly big change, that I'm still getting used to. Things have been good with all my friends, the drama seems to have just found its' way out of my life, and I'm happy about that. It seems when one thing goes right, something else goes wrong...why does it have to be like that? I guess I can't say that something is going wrong, but getting all caught up in feelings just seems wrong sometimes. Doesn't seem like anything good can really come out of "listening to your heart," whoever the heck said that bullcrap. Maybe I'm being a little harsh, but I am really frustrated with myself. I feel like I'm getting invovled with people who it inevitably will not work out with. I'm not sure that it's true, but it sure feels like it. I know this probably isn't making much sense, and maybe that's why I feel like I have to get it down somewere, so I can think it through as I'm writing it. (So far it's not working. Damn).  Hmmm, what am I trying to say? Okay, let me take a step back and just start over or try to. I've acknowledged my feelings and who they're for, but I wasn't expecting to have to acknowledge my feelings for two completely different people. It's confusing because it's likely to work out with one more than other, but I'm being stopped by this invisible fence or something. I realize I'm still probably not making much sense. I guess I'm just trying to say that I'm heavily confused with myself and my intentions/feelings and so on and so forth. Things at home are going pretty good. My parents are actually not being retarded for once in my life, they are both being somewhat normal. I guess it's just my lucky week. haha. So my birthday is comingup, and I realized that I invited like 45 people to my party and some people also asked to come, which is completely fine. My only worry is trying to satisfy everyone and making sure that everyone is having a good time...It will be really hard, but we'll see how it goes. I'm excited but I'm also sort of scared. It's sad that I am scared, but I just don't want to end up feeling lonely or anything even when I'm surrounded by my friends and people that I love. Last year was the same thing, I was surrounded by tons of my friends but I still ended up crying, and it just never occured to me why. I guess I realized why over time, but I just don't want to feel like that again...especially not on my birthday. Anyway, I don't really have a ton of plans for this weekend, I need to make sure my apps are all finished up and stuff. I still have a couple to do, so I've got to get through those. Anyway, I think I am done talking for now. That is all that is going on with me, and sorry to the people who waited so patiently for my update, next time I'll try not to make it after like 8 years. Thanks for you patience. 

Goodnight!

So I guess school starts next week. That's not good. I don't think I am ready, but at this point I dont't think I ever will be. I still need to do some shopping for school and new clothes considering I went shopping once this whole summer, oh wait, twice.  So i gotta hop on that pretty soon. Today was pretty much even worse than yesterday. I didn't want it to be that way, but I just got really overwhelmed with stuff and I dont know why but I feel sooooo incredibly alone right now. I have so many friends who love me and care about me, but I just still feel alone. It doesn't make much sense I realize. Things just haven't been going very good for me and I know that will change soon enough, I just wish it didn't feel like eternity.  I am not really sure what I am trying to say, but I guess I just surrender. I feel like things worth having are worth fighting for, but I don't think I have much strength left to fight for what I want anymore. I'm so exhausted that the mere thought of having to fight for something almost frightens me. Although I will keep fighting, I have to. I am anxious to see where this will take me and what comes out of it will probably be a surprise as well. Lets hope it's a pleasant one. I guess I am just confused because this week mother nature dropped by (bah, what an asshole) so I'm just having a hard time because of that. Anyway, I think I'm done for now. It's really late...goodnight.

Oops, I guess I'm retarded and don't know how to update this thing. Anyway, this past week wasn't too bad. I did some studying for ap bio, blah, and then hung out with some friends and got some ice cream...everything else is just a blurr. I got my paycheck on friday which was pretty heavenly. I am trying reallllllly hard to NOT spend a lot of money. I wannna save up for something really good, and worth every penny.  I saw "Step Up" that dance movie with Channing Tataum (mmmm baby hahah) and it was good, though the plot could've been better. I loved the dancing and the music was pretty fun and upbeat. Sunday night, we had guests and then after that I went to Sonya's house and hung out with her for a while. It was nice because I was getting really upset with my siblings (mainly raafia) because I was doing all the work. I washed more dishes than she has ever seen in her life, and like she was on the phone and stuff when the guests were leaving, and she was actually on the phone for most of the night now that i think about it. So that was frustrating because I was doing pretty much everything like always. So I needed that break. Seems like things are beginning to look up a little more so that is always nice. I talked to my friend who I got into an arugument with in June, and didn't talk at all this summer except for like the one time we went for ice cream, which didn't really talk much then, and then last night when we figured things out. I'm glad that we did figure things out because for a long time I wanted to just say that I was sorry but I wasn't really sure how. And I guess he made the move and said he was sorry so I appreciate that a lot, and hopefully things will just stay good, cause I like talking to him. He's a good listener. Anyway, I'm in the midst of figuring things out with another friend, with whom I had the biggest fall out with of all time this summer. Yes it does invovle a certain ex boyfriend, but I think she needed to see my point of view and I definitely gave it to her, so I'm anticipating something good, or relieving from this. Anyway, I'm at work...(seriously, where else do I go? lol) and it's not too bad. I want to get a lot of hours so that I can make a lot of money because I seriously need to save up especially if my dad is going to have me kind of help pay for tuition for where I go. Also, I NEEEEDDD some new jeans, damn it. But my body is like retarded, so no jeans look good. Urgh. Anyway, I think I've been okay for the most part. I'm not very excited for my birthday unfortunately, I just don't see it being that great. The group of friends from last september has been so broken up and like tangled that I dont' know what to do really. Oh well, it's on a monday too, ick! I hate monday's, they are just so unecessary...like tuesdays! and sundays! Okay, anyway, I pretty much need to be optimistic, or as much as possible. Unfortunately, and surprisingly, I don't have time to update each particular department, but have no fear. I'll get to that soon enough. I'm kind of excited for school to start, but I'm scared too...so I guess I'll just have to see what happens.....

Hmmm, so today is a really boring day and I don't really know what to say because I just feel so lazy and unproductive. Let's see...thursday night I went to see a movie with matt trecha, yuey, alex, faith, julien and jordan. The movie (the descent) was scary but it was soooooo creeepy and just really grotesque. The ending pretty much sucked a lot and I guess I found out the real reason why some of the people in the movie went like...really crazy. Anyway, after the movie, we found out that matt lynch and ian were sitting a few rows behind us and that was funny. I ran into Lisa, and that was really nice. I miss her a ton, so I'm glad that we ran into each other, hopefully I'll be able to see her again soon and for more than like 3 minutes. Anyway, after that I headed home and then went to sleep. Friday was a bit of a hectic day, I went to work and then I had to come home for jumah. Then soni came over and we talked for a short while and then I got ready for Faith's birthday party and then we headed out to meijers. I hadn't bought faith a gift yet, because I just hadn't had the time this week so we picked up a michael buble cd, candles and flowers and then picked up leila. I dropped soni off, and leila and I headed over to Faith's. We got there and everyone was all dressed up and looking pretty so that was nice. Then we all got ready to go bowling where I had a grand total score of about 75. YAY me. hahahah, I suck so much at bowling but I beat like 2 or 3 other girls. Then we headed back for dinner and ate in her living room and just talked and had a good time. Then we went Ice Skating and  yuey and I had a goood time, faith has actually had lessons with Ice Skating and it's so inspiring to watch her because she actually knows what she is doing, haha. And it makes me want to be a skilled ice skater, but practice makes perfect, right? Right! Anyway, after that we headed back to faiths for some cake and stuff, and we all chilled for a little bit. Around 9:10, I had to leave because I didn't want my parents to go crazy since I had been goign out so much this past week with Yuey being in town and everything. So I got home and then my mom and I went for another walk which was really nice. We actually decided on a curphew time for me....11. Which I am not complaining because knowing my dad, he probably would've been ilke..."uhh, how is 8:30?" or something stupid like that. haha. Maybe not THAT stupid...but yeah. During the winter my mom wants be to make it between 10-10:30 because it'll be a little more dangerous on the road and stuff. So yeah, atleast now I can tell everyone that I NEED to be home at a certain time. Anyway, we talked about that and we talked about some stuff that was a little bit crucial regarding my sister and stuff. Then we talked about marriage and love and it was really good. I know her perspective on love, and I have a better understanding of why she tries to keep us to protected. I guess she doesn't want me to fall in love and end up getting really hurt. Little does she know, that I have already been in love (or something like it) and I already have been hurt. I don't think it's a bad thing, necessarily, I have learned from it.  Which is better than just being bitter and hating someone for no good reason. Anyway, then we got home and I cleaned up a little bit and watched Conan, and then went to sleep.  I woke up around 330 today...in the afternoon. Now before anyone says or does anything, it's not like I get to sleep in during the week because I have to get up and work in the morning and that is just NOT fun. So the weekend is really the only time I can sleep in and just relax. So I woke up to THE MOST ANNOYING CRICKET IN THE UNIVERSE! It was soooooooooo damn loud. I wanted to sleep a little bit longer, but like that damn thing wouldn't stop making noise and it was so loud. Like, I thought it was sitting on my night stand right next to my bed, it was so loud. So I got up, and my brother walks in as I'm going into my bathroom and he's like.."omg did you just wake up?" and I was like, "no" lazily. Anyway, then I made some pizza and watched a movie with HUGH JACKMAN (my lover man) and it was cute. It's called "Someone Like You." So that was really good. Then I did the dishes for no reason...well, maybe because I'm like the best kid ever. hahahha. Anyway, then I got on the computer and now I'm here. And it's 830. I think I might go to red cedar or for a walk or something later, but yeah. That's all for now. Good Evening!

Yeah, I guess I just update when I feel like it. hahah. Anyway, these past two weeks haven't been toooo bad. About a week ago, last monday, I got into this HUGE fight with my mom. It all started off when I went shopping with Saeeda and Sonya and then went down to her house after for a little bit. I called my mom from her house and said that I'd be home around like 1030, and she was like okay. And then we started playing that one game, I don't remember what its called. Maybe tabu? Anyway, so it was getting to be about 11, so I called my mom and said I'd be home in like 15 more minutes and she got really upset and like frustrated and hung up on me. And that sort of just set me off because I had just spent a whole week helping her take care of people from pakistan (see previous entry) and now she was giving me all this crap. So, I went home sooner than later and I walked in the door and started yelling at my mom about how she shouldn't be mad that I'm at my best friends house, down the street, with her sisters (plus one more that didnt really matter if they were there or not) and that I spent the whole week breaking my back working for her, and then on top of the going to work, which is completely hell on its own. And so she got really upset at how I approached the situation (which I agree, was really really stupid of me) so I started to walk back outside when raafi pulls up to the house. And she gets out wondering my mom and I are yelling at each other at 11 at night, outside the house. And I was telling raafi that I was at sonya's and I hung out with her at her house from like 730-11 and that I hadn't been out of the house for a long time and it just wasn't fair that she was yelling at me after all I did. And so Raafi's conclusion was ..."okay, stop yelling, just don't go out for the next week." and that's when I started crying, and I took off. I just ran to sonya's house and I was a mess, and I ran down to her room and just cried and cried and cried. I ended up staying the night there after talking to saeeda for a long time and then, we were joined by  Soni and her friend, so yeah. That was Monday night. Tuesday morning, I woke up and went to work and didn't really tlak to anyone except for my brother who was actually nice enough to ask my side of the story. A lot of people have trouble doing that now days...looking at the issue from both perspectives. But anyway, I yelled at raafi alot the night I stayed at soni's. I went back home around like 130, or snuck in through my window and picked up some stuff I needed n went back to soni's and had macaroni and cheese. Thank god I have such wonderful friends. The rest of the week wasnt terrible, I didn't end up talking to my mom until like wednesday night/ish, and my sister and I didn't talk til like friday/ish. I'm not on perfect terms with her still, we just sort assumed that things are okay I guess. She likes this guy that I dont' really like, because I just don't like him. He's too clingy, and it's annoying as hell and he guilted her a lot and he just bugs me. Anyway, Friday I went to a carnival with faith, eva, dan, and faith's dad. It was a lot of fun. I had never been to a county fair before in my life, but it was fun. The rides were rather um...scary I guess. I'm a rollercoaster person, but that was just a bit crazy for me. haha. Saturday night I had to go to this dinner thing, and that lasted for a while, then I read a book and went to sleep. 

Yesterday- YUEY CAME TO TOWN!!!!! I am so excited, she's still one of my closest friends even though she lives in ct, and we don't really talk that much. Which I know maybe sounds like, wow, not friends at all? But as soon as I saw her I seriously felt comfortable and just me. And it helped because faithy was there too, and she always helps me feel comfortable with myself, even if I"m being a huge dork. But it was so fun, last night. Michael, Alex, Yuey, Faith, and I all hung out and jumped on the trampoline for a little bit, then we went to red cedar and played for a while. Then Michael and I went into the woods and I showed him the creek...or there lack of. And yuey and I talked some more and we took some funny pictures and yeah, it was a good time. I got home on time and everything was good. I need to be more timely when I hang out with people, but it makes me sad when I have to go because I don't get out very much as it is. Anyway, I had a lot of fun with them, and hopefully we can get together again before Yuey leaves, which is on saturday. Unfortunately...I hope I don't cry when she leaves, that'll be so depressing. lol. Anyway, now I'm at work, and I'm just trying to enjoy myself (hahah, not really working out too well) and hopefully I'll be able to go home and just relax and hopefully see yuey and faith again soon. 

Life Department- Life is good, I guess. It's as good as its going to be right now, atleast. I'm on good terms with mostly everyone, which is always nice. My family isn't being incredibly frustrating, which is also a BIG relief. I'm scared for senior year because I dont want people to move away and i want everyone to always be close and stuff, but I guess because I hate changes, this whole graduating thing makes life a bitttt difficult. Other than that, the rollercaoster (of life) goes on, and I'm still anticipating something big, I'm not sure what it is....but it's going to be big and hopefully it's going to be good.

Family Department- My family is all normal right now. Don't know how long that will last though. Seeing as how I often have things to argue about with my mom and sister. It's weird my dad and I are on better terms than my mom and I were for alittle bit. Which is something that happens very rarely, indeed. My sister and I as I explained above are okay. I still find myself annoyed with her at times, and like she takes everything I say to her wayyy to personally. So in short, its pretty much impossible to tell her how I feel about anything regarding and the absolutely retarded guys she likes. Oh well. 

School Department- School...ummm..yes. Well, I"m definitely scared for senior year, but I'm excited too. It should be a ton of fun, and I can't wait to see what the future brings. I'm excited for all our dances and actually for my classes too. So yeah, I just want everything to work out. I'm really ready to just do my best for one more year and then go to MSU, hopefully. So yeah, this year should be quite an adventure, and that's exactly what I need. 

Friends Department- Things are going pretty good with all of my friends which is always nice to know. I need to make sure I hang out with some people soon though because school is going to start on sept. 5th (yeah I know, wayyyy toooo soon) and yeah, time is running out. I'm just going to stick to my friends that are actually true to me and I'm not in for much drama so anything that starts drama is going to be automatically kicked out of my life/summer/school. I'm really just sick of bullshit, and I would really like ot just enjoy myself for as long as I can. Other than all that, the friends department is good. :)

Boy Department- Well, things with my crush are going good I guess. I hung out with him recently and he's so cute. Man. I had the opportunity to tell him how I felt, but I thought it was too soon to do anything, so I'll just wait to tell him when I'm really ready. Other than my crush, I don't really like anyone else, and I'm really looking for any guys. My crush and I have atleast built some sort of friendship, since he is really shy, but I think he and I can build on that and make it something really good. I guess we'll see, I'm excited but kind of scared with this whole thing too...meh boys.

Overall, sounds like I'm not doing too bad eh?? haha. It's cause I'm not. I have my moments when I just want something really bad, and I can't have it, then I get all prissy and stuff. Or when I want to do something and no one can hang out or something stupid like that. But other than that, things are running smoothly, and by the time I update this next time, I'll probably be like.."WOAH LIFE IS CRAZY" and it will probably be a little more intense than this entry. haha. Anyway, have a good day everyone!

So I was definitely in the middle of a really good entry and then the computer like freaked out at me. URGH! Anyway, I think I'm making a habit of just updating after a week or so, it sems I have more to say that way, because updating everyday..I mean, my life isn't really that exciting. haha. SO yeah. This past week has been rather hectic. Wednesday we went to the zoo which was a lot of fun. I saw a bunch of animals that I forgot the zoo even had, so those were nice surprises. I was especially excited about the snow leopard which was really awesome and the Lion. Yes I did see the snake, and yes it was bigger than god should allow it to be. And I pretty much almost started crying because I didn't because then everyone would've made fun of me. After that, we went and got some ice cream and then I took soni and bobby home and then everyone else headed over to Alex's. There we watched a movie called American Chai, which freakishly resembled my life in some ways. I dont know why that surprised me, really. After that we played hide and seek, in which faith and I absolutely sucked. hahahah. Oh well.  After playing that for an hour and not winning, I decided I shoudl probably head home. I gave leila and jordan a ride and on the way to drop of leila we had a reallllllly good conversation which I'm glad we had because she's a really cool person and understands me and my situation. Anyway...that was wednesday. On Friday, after Jumah Prayer, soni and I went all over town and bought raafi stuff for her birthday while she was gone with my parents to a funeral in detroit. Sad, I know. On her birthday too...But, Sonya and I went and got her spongebob napkins and plates, I bought her a shirt and the wedding date for presents, we baked her a cake, cleaned the house and I ordered pizza and paid when she got home. So pretty much everyone wishes they had a sister like me. hahah. Anyway, we ended up watching She's the Man with amanda bynes which is absolutely hilarious. It didn't look all that good but it really was, and I'm glad we watched it. I sort of want to like, buy it now. After the movie we cut the cake and then I dropped soni off at home. Saturday wasn't too amazing, we went to my friends graduation party thing and that was fun I guess. The girls are a bit crazy with all their digital cameras and stuff. They were like, taking a hundred pictures and I was just kind of sitting there wishing I was somewhere else. Nice I know. Anyway, saturday night we planned to have guests come over and spend the night from pakistan. And I was rather excited about that becaues last I remembered, I really enjoyed the kids and stuff and they were just really nice people. So I got home from the party and they had already made it and so I got in and said Salam and then realized that the kids weren't so young anymore and they were a little more snotty than I had hoped for. Then, because my parents are like- assholes or something, they were like..."oh yeah, they are staying here til thursday." I seriously wanted to punch the lights out of my dad. THAT IS A WHOLE BUSINESS WEEK! Did I forget to mention that there are only 5 people in my house, and we aren't really running around with space for 5 more. So my dad decides to jampack 10 people in our house and the man...the headaches began. I was already pms-ing but ontop of that, I was the only person doing all the work. I helped with dinner, I helped clean, I made sure they were fully accomodated. Raafi was out "Studying" or so she says and omair doesn't do shit in the first place, so I was all stuck in this shithole by myself. The kids weren't so bad on sunday ,but monday was just hell. I had to work, so I woke up at 9am, and left and then came home showered and slept and then had Sonya over for a bit, because they all went to a bbq at my dad's friends house, which I wasn't going to go. So soni and I talked but I didn't really feel like I was all there. Tuesday was pretty bad because I worked came home and pretty much dealt with slave labor for about 9 hours straight, which I shouldn't be complaining but still. I guess they had servants in pakistan so they were all...."get me some water." And I was like, what the hellll???? Kids are going to die. Anyway, so than late last night I found out that they were to leave today instead of tomorrow. (today is wednesday). And I was soooo relieved. I kind of hate sleeping with raafi because she sprawls out her arms and legs like shes having a dream about the titanic scene with rose and jack. You know the.."I'm flying" one. Anyway, so I'm kind of excited but I can't help but feel guilty for my behavior. i could've been nicer and I tried but this is just such a bad week that I couldn't really control it. My mom was nagging me left and right and I had pretty much had it with her. Anyway, today they are leaving adn I'm currently still at work, I think I will be for another hour cause then I have to go home and say farewell and such. Anyway, I'm done for now, have a good day everyone!

Well, the rest of last week is sort of a blur. (what else is new??) So yeah, I ended up having a relatively good weekend, though it seemed to be so long..and oh so nice. Last week there were a lot of birthdays and I talked about kayla's and jimmy's. Saeeda's was on Wednesday (the 12th). I think Sonya and I as a whole had the most fun at Saeeda's because as always, we weren't afraid to be just really freaky and yet funny. We made another skit but not a harry potter one. You might remember me talking about those in the posts from like last summer...waaaay back when. Anyway, this time we did scary movies, and put together silence of the lambs and texas chainsaw masscre to give us a true masterpiece. It was reallllllly funny, and like we had music, props, facial expressions...wow...this is like wojo's poem expectations..weird! Anyway, it was a lot of fun, raafi and saeeda both recorded it on their camera's and it was just sooooo funny to watch afterwards. I think overall saeeda had a relatively good birthday, I know she wasn't enjoy the early half of it because she had to work, but we tried to lighten up the last half of it. Anyway, the rest of that week is again, a blur. I think Sonya was gone last weekend up north, and she had fun with that. I didnt do anything spectacular (probably why I dont remember it very well). Monday wasn't bad, I went to work came home helped around the house and then Jimmy fixed the guitar string that I snapped the night before. Coincidentally, it was the G string...weird! Anyway, soni came with me and then we went back to my  house and chilled for a while. Yesterday felt like the worst day of my life. Or this week. (and its only wednesday...urgh).  I went to work and omair started being a little brat and talking back to me when I was upset at him for doing half our work the wrong way. He kept saying "calm down." That is seriously the stupidest thing you can say to a pms-ing girl, on the verge of tears who is upset because you are fucking over her work and making her job 10 times more annoying than it already is. Then my sister being a freak and wouldn't get off the chair I needed (not needed, but wanted and it was the chair for the computer I was using) when I had to load stuff on to the computer and she wouldn't freaking get up. I was seriously at disbelief at how rediculous she was being...and lazy. Then, I went home around 3, and did nothing. cleaned, read, ate food. Then around like 6 my parents started getting ready to kalamazoo, and like were taking forever which was makng me mad because Saeeda asked me to meet up w/ joe and matt at red cedar cause she was stuck at a car dealership. And I tried to go, but then I called her and said I couldn't, and didnt really do anything the rest of the night. I picked up soni from bobby's around 1030, and we went back to my house. We had food and soni ended up spending the night and we talked til about 215, and then we sort of dropped out. This morning, I miraculously managed to wake up around 9, and get ready for work. I dropped off soni, and then raafi took omair and I to work. Now I'm at work and today around 3, I am planning on leaving hell (aka work) and go home take a shower, eat food and then get ready and go to the ZOO with some friends! It will be tons of fun, since I haven't been to the zoo in forever long. I'm anxious, but nervous cause I keep thinking of the snakes and how everyone is going to want to look...and I'm gonna wanna look but I dont want to...its like....a car accident, you dont wanna look...but you can't look away. Anyway, we'll see how that goes. Anyway, I'm still at work like I said above, and I'm gonna go and do something....